so i'm guessing this blogging thing isn't going to be every day, although i check other people's pretty regularly and get mad when it's not updated (*cough* hypocrite *cough*) hahaha
not too much going on....except a bad back that's really making me angry. one minute, my back is fine, the next, pinched nerve and i'm walking like my dear great-aunt mary, all hunched over and such. it truly does suck getting old!
so, last friday, i got an email from my bestest friend in ohio and we made a phone date....i called her saturday and we talked for 2 1/2 hours! i miss her so much. but, i was successful in my plan to get her to join facebook! yay me! it was sad talking to her, realizing that she bought her house in 2002, and i still haven't seen it! i don't like that life gets in the way of doing things! stoopid life!
work is meh.....it's there, and i love the people i work with, but i know it's not what i want to do for the rest of my life. but, it's paying my bills (kinda) and there's no extra money to put towards what i want to do, which would include going back to school. even if i went for osap and such, what am i going to do with my kid in the meantime?
you know those people that say "i can't remember my life without kids?" well, i can! and i miss it! please do not misconstrue that statement into "i don't want my kid" because i love diana more than i thought i could love anyone and wouldn't change a thing....but i can vividly remember my life before her. maybe true, deep labour pains erase those memories or something, and since i didn't go into deep labour, those memories remain. hmmmm....maybe i'm on to something. like in the movie "men in black" when they use their little light-pen things to erase the person's memory...maybe that was supposed to happen!
again, i don't regret diana....i just remember a time without her. was it better? depends on your perspective. would i go back? nah, i like the kid...let's keep her around. :P i was never one of those people who said "i can't wait to have kids" ...i didn't want kids. ask around, my family and friends will vouche for me on that one. i actively tell my friends now "don't have kids...don't do it!" i am glad that i waited until i was deep into my 30s before i had her. i lived a fun life. regrets? i have a few....but it was fun. my fun and craziness led me to jay. mistake? i think not! i remember my life without jay...i thought i was happy back then. i can look back now and see that i really wasn't.
wow....how did this get so deep? this has to stop! and i'm going to go watch the end of top chef now.... :P
til later....hopefully it won't be another 2 weeks!
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1 day ago
I like my kids too - but I know what you mean. I really enjoyed your depth and the peek into your life. Something about blogging, it does tend to pull out ones deepest thoughts.
ReplyDeleteThere is a book you might appreciate to help you get ideas for how to get going with your big dreams and plans. It's called 'making a living without a job' -- or something like that. It is packed full of 'can do' ideas that might serve as your inspiration to make your present job more of a temporary thing and your dreams more of a possibility.
LoL, I so get what you mean about not being able to post daily. I've had a blog on and off for like 9 years and it took me a while to get out of the whole, good day today, bad day today sorta post. I know a lot of people who can post daily and post substatial things daily but I guess I just don't have the drive or the patience to do that, lol. Also I'm not that funny.
ReplyDeleteI completely understand what you're talking about with the whole life before kids. Every now and then I look back and think wistfully to a time when it didn't take planning and packing just to get out the door. But I wouldn't trade them for anything, most of the time, lol.
We should definately get together sometime! I miss people, (but you specifically too, lol) I'm currently unemployed so yeah, loads of free time, lol. Just let me know a time that's good for you. :)